Yesterday afternoon, around 3:15pm, I accepted a job offer - as of February 1st I will be teaching 3 blocks of Freshman English at a mid-size suburban high school (and spending substantial amounts of time in my car). I have a real teaching job.... and I was still being considered for another. Safe to say, it was a very surreal day for me. I am exhilarated and terrified, simultaneously, and cannot stop wondering, "Who the heck decided I was qualified to lead an actual grown-up life?" I need to write emails to various family members, former employers/supervisors and academic advisors to let them know, but I hardly know where to begin - I always find it ironic that I am an English major and a writer, yet words elude me quite often. Now there is paperwork to take care of, planning to think about, and I have to start thinking about where I will live (or who I will live with) after February. Just for this weekend though I wish I could simply relish knowing I have some stability for the next five and a half months and enjoy being temporarily free of any substantial workload.
Enjoy your weekends. Over and out.
P.S. I also saw Freedom Writers last night. I fully intend to post about it later this weekend, this just isn't the moment for it.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Thursday, January 04, 2007
It's a daunting world
The holidays went by too quickly, if you ask me, and now I've been thrust right back into the fray. Already I miss the crazy cousin camraderie, too much "primetime in the daytime on TNT" with my mom and my sister, and my aging "satos" trying to share my easy chair and my snacks.
Now I'm on the job hunt while still finishing up the final requirements for my certification. Interviews are less intimidating than I expected, and so far things are boding well. The thought of actually getting offered and doing any of these jobs, that part is definitely still very intimidating. My professional portfolio and defense are scoring quite high on the intimidation scale too - I'm down to the wire on this one. The online software my teacher preparation program uses to handle all our portfolios is almost as unwieldy as the enormous binders of photocopied "artifacts" it is replacing. It has so many little quirks and glitches that I feel like assembling my portfolio is taking up a much time as it took to create many of these projects! But everything is in motion so that I'll be done with all of it soon: my meeting with my advisor went well, I know exactly what I still need to take care of and my defense has a date and time. Wonderful! Now I can proceed to be terrified because I finally have to enter the mysterious world of grown-ups with real jobs, health insurance and full-price movie tickets (yikes!). I don't feel like a grown-up - I feel like an impostor who has simply been very successful in infiltrating their ranks.
Well, it's time to continue working on my professional portfolio - more reflection about "Standards" and such - so I'm over and out.
Now I'm on the job hunt while still finishing up the final requirements for my certification. Interviews are less intimidating than I expected, and so far things are boding well. The thought of actually getting offered and doing any of these jobs, that part is definitely still very intimidating. My professional portfolio and defense are scoring quite high on the intimidation scale too - I'm down to the wire on this one. The online software my teacher preparation program uses to handle all our portfolios is almost as unwieldy as the enormous binders of photocopied "artifacts" it is replacing. It has so many little quirks and glitches that I feel like assembling my portfolio is taking up a much time as it took to create many of these projects! But everything is in motion so that I'll be done with all of it soon: my meeting with my advisor went well, I know exactly what I still need to take care of and my defense has a date and time. Wonderful! Now I can proceed to be terrified because I finally have to enter the mysterious world of grown-ups with real jobs, health insurance and full-price movie tickets (yikes!). I don't feel like a grown-up - I feel like an impostor who has simply been very successful in infiltrating their ranks.
Well, it's time to continue working on my professional portfolio - more reflection about "Standards" and such - so I'm over and out.
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